Skinny Vs Fat

So really whats the hype, I mean of course i want to be skinnier.... I am a Fatty lol and its been 4 yrs since ive had my son. But when i say i want to be skinnier i mean not size 5 and under no thanks. i want my legs to touch a bit, i want my thighs to be a bit thick n have a butt. I could easily go for a sz 9 lol. I just dont understand why everyone thinks the ideal girl is skinny no legs touching small chested long hair and what not. I am preparing to head to Korea and my husband knows i have skinny girl complex and he told me that literally most people who are out there, look like models walking around. Great so i already have a complex of my big belly now im going to look like a rhino in a sea of meerkats lol.. Well anyways, while im on the subject tomorrow is first day of Lent and i am quitting soda.....

Literally i just get so jealous of skinnies though, cheaper clothes, the fit in the rides easier. clothes look overall better on them. I mean im not in no ways hating skinny people because like i said i want to be skinnier, i just dont want to be stick skinny and i dont want to be only liked because im skinny. I want people to accept me now the way i am and see inner Crystal not Outter. Alas though i am starting to get onto the plan and i am going to skadoosh my way to a thinner life...